"poetry"

meet me at midnight,
i murmur to me myself,
thin, and starved with
a need of i know not what.

now by day, i live on air,
wade through streams of crystals,
or fly through clouds,
or stretch out myself on a bed of sand.

it has become for me an endless story,
of lives lost and lives lived,
long past prime and undeath,
towards a distant final horizon.

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candy rots the teeth,
women bleed and men sweat,
rotting facilities decompose meat and turn it to fuel
and scientists live on the edge of the red-line
(scientists are not immune to suicide)
and finally, this is the title of the collection,
as a declaration of liberation:

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through crescendo become
through cephalopod magic
through violence i reach
where i had been the whole time

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i visit astral cities of liminal glass
crystal biospheres, migrating patterns of photons
it reveals itself, to me, the blueprint
my soul has been created for this purpose
it has navigated itself across space and time
how beautiful it is, how elegant
how perfect in all its unique mystery
the energy becomes as my chosen form
with me it is a living being
it has become as real
in my mind eye it reveals itself as me

~~~

god will kill me before letting me be successful:

i abandon all hope as i hear the
draining machine, slow and groan,
torturous cord, overlord pulsing,
all sense of purpose quickly dissolved,
all boundaries tear, technology looks like chaos,
the abyss gazes at me,
its chest heaving, its wrist pulsing,
its eye a reflective void
a horrendous blackness, a mockery of life,
my essence, my soul and mind,
terrified, disoriented, annihilated, ye who enter here.

~~~

cybernetic angels descend
into what i think is my eyes
and i see these horrendous creatures
with silver wings and rotted flesh
and i laugh because this is the
light i am destined for.
i die laughing and i
scream for mercy
but its all a
daze and i
am afraid
of where
i have
gone.

~~~

transmission from aether picked up in morse
destitute, knowing only duty song
apocalyptic portents deliver the
punishment, cold indifference
knowing the end is never nigh

~~~

i attempt to build a time machine
a clockwork god
spinning in his throne room
watching through eyes
whose blood slowly leaks
from a crevice in the shape of a star

~~~

a dead starfish starves
watching itself decay
through astral projection

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death–becoming-evident-invited–summoned
manifesting–reappearing
creating–disappearing
reappearing-manifesting
dreaming–envisioning–looking
channelling-changing-changling-continuing

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grey little island
walking life randomness old tired depravity
cheerfully shady review craft blog college university
luminous visage keyhole
class consciousness sibling conversation secrets liberty
psychologically flawed deal of a
argument heavy burden proud prejudice
light blossom dual exclamation point
epiphany flowers unruly rejection
speed walking validation suicidal hissy fit

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i dream of malign ur-orgone orgonon
of qlippothic entropy, a silent screech
of knotted sheet metal dark as sun
that burns florescent bright as bleach
it makes you turn off your light
as you scowl because you fear
how pale the sun really is in black-and-white

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on a cloudless day
you could burn yourself
in bright yellow
white ash and
fly to the edge
of the universe
and dive into the
bottomless purple heat, where
you once you existed, where
you screamed and saw no end, where
your voices were burnt

~~~

like an algebra problem with a knife and a grudge
its okay to say no without crying
a half-drunken pop can filled up with bugs
violence should be heard and not seen

~~~

art anima mundi forum black age basement
bakish system gather fiction clandestinity
animism magical ecology spiritual technoacadem
ablia reductionism indie quarks chapbooks
machine aphelion novel experimental
ekstransit hypothesis caryatid association

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a perfect line of white noise
an infuriating "hello"
god or girl or devil
a pungent scent that cloys

~~~

it suggests benign existential clarity
rather surreal hometown gods.
fascination burgeoning and covered by
statues parked grotesquely.